So, I've decided that there is a much better analogy that for me seems to make a little more sense. I think having a micro preemie is like living in Southern California on the San Andres fault line. Vanessa being born early would be our magnitude 6.0. It's scary, traumatic and takes a lot of rebuilding to recover, but all along you know that you are at risk for an aftershock, or even worse that the first quake was a before shock and you've got a worse one coming. So, you sleep with one eye open, and you never really settle just waiting for the next strike. And sure enough, you get it. Aftershocks.... Constant aftershocks, some worse than others, but never letting up enough for you to feel safe because you know that at any moment your world can be shook up. So you try to rebuild, but then you are broken back down.
Right now, all I'm trying to do is survive from one earthquake to the next. Is it easy? Absolutely not. But I'm trying to cherish the good days and make it through the bad ones, and remain strong for my family.
On the bright side, Vanessa is now 3 pounds 3 ounces, which is bigger than Travis was at birth. I don't know why it seems like such a big deal, but to me, from here it doesn't seem as scary. Even though Vanessa is still not breathing on her own, her size is becoming a source of comfort.
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♥ Cassea
I will be there in just about 4 days!!!! I hope to help in some way possible!?!!! Cannot wait to see you and the rest of the Hernandez Family!!!! :)...plus the other McDonald Girls!!!!!! 1-4-3!!!!
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